My 6 month old Megan

This is Megan in January 2009. She looked very much like her big brother.

Here she is in February at the doctor's clinic for one of her many injections during her first year. She has not cried once so far. My brave little darling.

In the month of March, her first time to Atria, Damansara Jaya. She lost her ladybird hand rattle there. I have been trying to replace it ever since. Anyone knows where I can get a ladybird hand rattle from Goldbug? Apparently it is a hit seller.

In the month of April, she discovered that a vertical view of the world is a whole lot more interesting! Great thing this Bumbo seat is!

My 35th birthday in May is celebrated with my family, this year with little Megan joinning in.
This year's Father's Day in June also marked Megan's first time to the beach. It was very hot for her though.

Her latest feat on the walker marks her completing her 6 months of life and going into it strongly.

Megan starts her solids today

And you can see from her face above, she did not exactly take it too well. We gave her red rice powder, just like the one we gave Ryan 4 years back.

I think Megan took a whole spoonfull in the 2 feedings we gave her the whole day. She did not hesitate to gulp down her milk though.

Hmm ... I think she is addicted to me! We will try again next week and see how she takes it.

Really love this one to bits!

On their walkers

These were both taken when they were 6 months old.

And I have this habit of asking "Which do you think is Megan and which is Ryan?"

I am one happy mum!

Ryan got rid of his diaper!

On Sunday, Ryan went to bed with his diapers. While trying to sleep, he took off the diaper and then went to sleep. After an hour, he woke up screaming, he had wet himself and he was angry with himself. After calming him, we put the diaper back and he went to sleep.

On Monday night, we put the diaper on and he went to sleep. The next morning, I woke him up to find that the diaper was thrown out in the middle of the night. But the good thing was that, he was still dry!! Yay!

This morning, he again woke up without his diaper and he was still dry. Double yay!!

And now, he just slept (yes, I know, it is late, but technically, I cannot make him go to sleep, right?) without the diaper. I have to sneak up on him to do that. And I am wondering if he will wake up tomorrow morning without his diapers again.

If he does, that would mean, I can stop spending all those money on diapers, triple yay!!

Should I get an iphone?

For a while now I have been thinking about getting the iphone. I know, I know, it has been out in the market for a while now. But I have always been slow when it comes to techie stuff. I am a confirmed techie blur.

The reason why I cannot shake it off my head is because Maxis has this huge billboard right down the road I take everyday to work. It is always there right smack to my face. It really looks very nice and sleek, the sort of phone you won't mind taking if out of your bag often.

I really do not know much about the full specs, but I think it is suffice to know that anything that Apple does should be quite user friendly. My only other thing from Apple is my ipod and it is great.

A friend of mine has one of the earliest ones when it was launched. I must say that it is quite a stunner. However, one of the things you must constantly do is to download its latest updates to its software. I wonder if a techie blur like me will be able to handle it though.

She also showed me its touch screen functionality and said it was great for playing games, something her little 5 year old is already good with. Hmm, not really something I want Ryan to see though. I do not want him hooked to my laptop AND my phone!

Of course, as with all things from Apple, I am sure there are loads of accessories which will help enhance its looks and functions. Most basic ones that I can think of will be the iphone accessories, iphone charger and the iphone cases.

However, one big big thing for me is the price tag. With that amount of money, I can actually pay a whole year of Megan's insurance premium! And I also wonder with its high end specs and all, how long will it take before it becomes obsolete?

Sigh, so many questions, do you think it is worth getting?

My kids, my motivation

When I first had Ryan, I was obsessed with quitting my job. I had wanted to be at home with my baby, seeing his little face, watching him smile, changing and feeding him. But I also had a concern, what will I do to sustain my income level?

Pretty soon, the spark fizzled and I was back to my old working self although I hated every minute I was away from Ryan.

4 years on and with Megan's arrival, I have this itch again. This time, my motivation is no longer what it was with Ryan. I no longer want to be a stay at home mum, rather I want to be a mum who can devote her time for her kids AND run something on the side with income exceeding my current levels. Looks ambitious huh?

But I have a great friend who has shown me that it is indeed possible. That it is not a task that is too difficult to accomplish. That my dreams of being with my kids when they come back from school is not going to remain a dream anymore. That it is possible to sustain my lifestyle plus so much more.

So here I am, looking at my kids, admiring them, adoring them, thinking, planning, realising that my dreams is on its way to becoming true. Kids are truly a miracle. They make us mummies want to do things for them, they make us mummies want to do things because of them.

My kids are truly my motivation.

Megan bites her toes!

Last weekend, we saw Megan doing this. She was putting her legs high and was sucking on her toes! I was really amazed by it since I never saw Ryan doing any of these things.

Megan would suck on her left thumb till the nails became uneven and flaky. And now this, she is doing this. Whenever she puts her toes into her mouth, I watch in delight.

Kids are such lovely beings. Both my kids behave very differently, this is one of them. Looking forward to seeing more differences tomorrow.

How does dragon fruit come about?

Ryan told me this out of the blue last night.

Ryan: Mummy, you know how dragon fruits are made?
Me: No, how are they made?
Ryan: The dragon fly breathe fire and then you get the dragon fruit.
Me: Wow, aren't you a clever one!

Really, kids have tonnes of imagination don't they?

My plant at the office over the weekend

I have always like to have plants on my desk. It makes me feel fresh and happy. And usually, it is one of those money plants which are quite easy to take care of. You can leave them and forget to water them and they will still turn out alright.

But my latest plant is not as hardy as that and look what happened when I left on Friday without watering it first. Isn't it sad?


I was a little horrified, thinking that it had died on me. I started to water it, hoping that it has still the strong will to live. After about an hour, voila!

It survived and going strong! I love that plants are on my desk making me smile each time I see them. Hopefully when I get back tomorrow, it is still sitting pretty!

I am happy but also jealous

When Ryan was small, he used to look up to me and depend on me a lot. It sometimes overwhelm me to a point where I wonder if he was ever going to be independent. And needless to say, he enjoyed a closer relationship with me than he did with his dad.

Although hubby did mention this to me, I brushed him off saying that Ryan adored him anyway so he does not need to be so silly about it.

4 years on, exactly around the time Ryan celebrated his 4th birthday, he began his process of breaking free from me. It started with wanting to sleep with his daddy instead of squashed with me in the middle and Megan on the other side.

He also began to go to school and go up the stairs on his own instead of clinging on to me. He also started to change his own clothes, button them up, bathe himself, feed himself and even helped to soothe Megan when I was unavailable.

And now, his relationship with his dad has improved a lot and I think his daddy is extremely happy about it. Although I know that deep down nothing can replace a mother's love, I cannot help but feel jealous sometimes when Ryan gets close to his dad or when he wants his dad to brush his teeth, change his clothes or even send him to school.

Some people I speak to seem to think that it is cute and he is so grown up, I just cannot help but feel jealous about it. But I have this deep sense of pride knowing that he is growing up just right.

There are still many years to come where he will display his readiness to break away and be independent, but at the moment I wish that those years will come slowly.

I am not ready to break free ... am I just being silly?